justbeingchristinne:

*Just saw this on Facebook. And yes, I want to post this here.

1. A man won’t let go if he really loves you.

- Do not hold on to someone who has let go of you. He does not love you and does not value having you. Believe me, he will not let go if he really loves you. There is another reason he is…

I’m not mad. I’m just kinda disappointed? After all of my efforts to you? And that’s just all what I’ve got from all of you? Am I not really that entitled to be on that party? For God sake’s estudyante hanggang sa maging engineer yang anak niyo. I was there! And few hours before the party someone called me. Asking songs for the vtr presentation and i was asking what was that for hindi man lang singaot. I gave a decent song suggestions anyway. Then ganun na lang? Bastusan lang. Give me a break people of asjkdgfbtarlaquenatolentinoslkjdfhjhmnf.

Can I just skip this step? I just want to be okay. I hope all of the pain is gone.

Dear Paolo,

You were once my perfect definition of what love is, that’s why I loved you so much. I’ve seen in your eyes that looks at me in a very different kind of way, in you smile that you wear in your face whenever you’re with me and in your touch that comforts and lingers me, what love is. That’s why I fell a millionth times over and over in love with you. You were once everything I asked to God for. The one who will mend my life that even myself couldn’t even dent. The one who will save me but not until, you gave up on me.

I love how photos relive some moments that never didn’t last, the moment once we had. Good old times. :”> This is my token of appreciation. To serve your memory right. And to be a proof that once in your life you loved a little princess named kayla benita. :) 

Probably for a moment, I was the girl you’ve been dying to see each day..then maybe I became the girl you sure proud of.. or even the girl you want to be by your side, celebrating with you every time you succeed and lastly the once you thought of marrying someday.. the girl you’ll face in the altar with. :’)

I know..I know things change, we grow up! I completely understand. You’re always been ahead of me, to the point that I’ can’t catch up. You’re on the fast track.. with bright future and a promising career. While me? Probably still thinking what the hell she’ll do for the rest of her life. Yes, I know things didn’t work out. You know.. sometimes love really isn’t enough. Having me with you will slow you down. You had planned you’re future without me in it. And who am I to object and question that? These are the things I wish I can control but of course, I can’t.

You are a man with dreams and big ambitions. This is who you are. And I can’t change that. Or even blame that to be the reason why we didn’t work out. I admit, I have also my contributions of mistakes and failures. But my point is? I don’t want to be a hindrance in achieving your dreams. So go, succeed and reach every goal you have. And I’ll be very happy for you.

It’s already been a while since the last time I heard from you. I hope you’re doing well. I also want you to know that I’m fine. Everything’s doing great. I am on the process of subsiding all the pain. Yes, I’m already moving on.. to a place where you can no longer hurt me. I got it. I’m almost there. :) I have to accept things.. it’s already sunk in my mind.

Paolo, I’m really sorry for the shits I’ve out you through. Thinking it all now makes me laugh. How desperate I was. How crazy, clingy and needy I was. But most of all, babe thank you for everything. :) Our story of to-infinity-and-beyond had finally came to stop. I do hope these good memories will continue our story until the very last of time. 

So long Paolo, til we meet again? :) Me time you equals infinite, right? :) I love you. I’ll always do.

-Benita (wet hands girl)

Shotgun

Several times I dreamed being shot by a gun. Sometimes I die - feeling the coldness of my whole body. Sometimes I was shot in a very short range directly in my heart. Then last night, my dream was like I’m in an action movie. Shot inside the car but it missed then another shot that put a hole in my left foot. Scaryyy.

BIRTHDAYS EVERY YEAR OF EVERYDAY.

It striked me. I just realize how I put importance to birthdays. Birthdays are Birthdays. It’s your day. Everything supposed to be magically wonderful and full of fun. That’s my idea of birthdays. IT SHOULD BE EXTRA-ORDINARY in any other way.

Extra-ordinary? Yes, it isn’t just a day. It’s your birthday. And the hell, It comes only once a year, and why the hell aren’t you gonna celebrate it? Cause you’re old? WHAT A LAME EXCUSE! So what if you’re 23? 42? or even 78? YOU SHOULD CELEBRATE IT! You should be thanking everyone who became part of that wonderful year. 

I just don’t like the fact that there are people, who diregard their birthdays. I pity them. 

Ang pagmomove-on ay parang marathon, hindi ka mananalo kapag lingon ka ng lingon.

Hindi ko alam, at hindi ko pa naranasan na magmarathon o funrun kung tawagin ng iba. Pero kung ang pagmomove on ay parang marathon.. hindi ako magmamadaling tapusin ito. I’ll definitely take my time. Basta alam ko makakarating ako dun ng may kasama o wala. 

Kapag tumatakbo ako, natatakot ako lumingon gusto ko laging nakafocus kung saan ako papunta, ayoko kasing madapa at masaktan. Pero paano na lang kung pilit kang kinakalabit ng nasa likod mo? Paano kapag tinatawag ka niya? Lilingon ka ba? Titigil ka ba at hihintayin siya? 

Kung tatanungin mo ako? Hindi ang isasagot ko. Hindi ko siya lilingunin, hindi ako titigil at lalong hindi ko siya hihintayin. Gusto ko habulin niya ako kung gusto niyang sumabay muli sa takbo ng buhay ko. 

BYE.

May mga bagay na sadyang ang hirap kalimutan. Mga tipong, ayaw mo din kalimutan kasi sayang, kasi ayaw mo na magsimula ng bago sa iba, kasi gusto mo pa maranasan yung ganung feeling, kasi sa kahit anong sakit himalang natatalo pa din ito ng saya. At higit sa lahat, kasi umaasa ka pang magiging okay din ulit ang lahat. 

Pero dumadating din sa pagkakataon na nakakapagod nang subukan at ayusin ang lahat. Na sa kahit anong pilit mo at gawin mo, hindi na ata kayang mabalik sa dati ang lahat. Oo, nakakalungkot iwan nang basta basta ang lahat, pero ang masasabi ko lang, TAMA NA Kayla. TAMA NA. 

Humihingi na din ako ng tawad sa mg taong nasagasaan ko. Hindi ko naman sinasadya na madadamay kayo, siguro masyado lang akong naka-focus kung saan ako papunta kaya nadamay kayo. Pasensya na, kasi masyadong naging matigas ang ulo ko. Pinipilit lagi ang gusto ko, na kahit minsan napaka-impossible na at wala sa lugar, sige pa rin ako ng sige.

Madaming nangyari sa isang taon. Madami akong natutunan. Madami akong naranasan. Salamat sa lahat. 

Paalam, dito muna ako kung nasaan man ako. Sana isang araw, may lakas ako ng loob na bumalik at magpakita lahat sa inyo. Siguro sa panahong iyon, okay na lahat. Wala nang sakit. Wala ng galit at poot sa dibdib. 

Kayla Benita Navarro

sunognatinapay:

omgstfukayla:

sunognatinapay:

Hindi naman sa against ako sa mga katulong o kasambahay. Pero ang pinaka-ayaw ko lang, e yung may uniform pa sila, tapos sunod-sunuran sa amo, dala-dala yung dalawang malalaking bagahe, pati may iuutos pa silang imposibleng mangyari.

Halos everyday ako nakakakita ng ganitong sistema sa trabaho,…

gusto ko yang pananaw mo. :) Hiniwalayan ko ang boyfriend kong de-uniform ang mga katulong sa bahay at hindi ko mabilang kung ilan ang katulong nila sa dami, dahil hindi niya ako matangap dahil ako ay isang babaeng nabibilang sa lower class ng society. At siya, ay andun sa pinakataas. :|

Oo Hindi naman sa ayaw natin ng ganon, sa idelohiya lang ng Caste System ang pinaguusapan doon. Wait nagugulahan ako, boyfriend? O ex? 

EX. hahahaha! sorry naman. :) 

(Source: akosikalayaan, via akosikalayaan)

sunognatinapay:

Hindi naman sa against ako sa mga katulong o kasambahay. Pero ang pinaka-ayaw ko lang, e yung may uniform pa sila, tapos sunod-sunuran sa amo, dala-dala yung dalawang malalaking bagahe, pati may iuutos pa silang imposibleng mangyari.

Halos everyday ako nakakakita ng ganitong sistema sa trabaho,…

gusto ko yang pananaw mo. :) Hiniwalayan ko ang boyfriend kong de-uniform ang mga katulong sa bahay at hindi ko mabilang kung ilan ang katulong nila sa dami, dahil hindi niya ako matangap dahil ako ay isang babaeng nabibilang sa lower class ng society. At siya, ay andun sa pinakataas. :|

(Source: akosikalayaan)

Kung maghahanap ka ng kapalit ko, ayus ayus din. Wag yung jejemon “kiNsa dAy nI”.. tapos bisaya. Nako!! hindi kayo magkakaintindihan niyan. Wag din desperado, babae na nga ng kaibigan mo kukuhain mo pa.

It’s weird that i missed you already even if i spent a day with you yesterday. I don’t know what and how does it affect us. But it was beyond what I expected and happiness was flowing in every vein of my being.

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Naniniwala akong walang script sa mundo, outline and alternatives meron. because even if God has written everything for us, He still gave us the freewill to choose. He made all the possible alternatives, and even those which aren’t. at ang maganda pa dun, he made the best outcomes for each alternatives. so whenever you made the wrong decision, in the end you’ll end up being happy, if not, satisfied for what you have :)

-Darlene Co